Lost

[Lost]

How do I move on, knowing that you exist. How do I settle for another, when all I want is you and "this". Unyielding. I try not to fall, but stumble at every turn. Meeting you opened my eyes. Its been a life lesson, a lesson learned. Schooled. Forever on the ledge, jumping out the window. Free falling from the roof. Love is a base jump. All thrill, no security. Insecure as I fall. Am I destined to be without you. Meant to be with you. I pray the latter, realize the former. I yearn for your touch. Forever out of reach. What am I longing for, you. Stellar. My mind races at a hectic pace. My heart breaks stride. An uneven contest. Imperfect race. I breathe heavy. Stress heavy. Sweat heavy. Overflowed the levy. Out of pocket. I can't be contained. Though i'd like to be held. Held up. Put down. Rage. I feel it. Pain. I see it. Not rejection. Exception. There are no rules. Play by ear. The tune is fear. Melody, euphoric. Usually uptempo, but this is a down beat. Two step all day, can't get down with this beat. Brain tired. Soul tired. Body tired. I feel beat. You're like a drug. I'm addicted to you. All day long I dream of a hit, of you. Parting is such sweet, hmmm, nah, fuck sorrow. Parting is hell for the departed. I dread a new day, but welcome a new year. Damn. New years. Why didn't I listen. I don't want to be that guy. I guess here is where I say goodbye...